Celebrating my first baby steps with gratitude.
2 nights ago, I was watching dream images while falling asleep and turned 2 of them into dreams:
There is a dog.
I become lucid and remember to look at it. It is medium-sized, tawny in colour and no particular breed. Does not seem to have a collar.
There are 2 pillars. This is the void deck of a block of HDB flats.
The dog passes between the two pillars and goes off.
But before it does so, it pees and leaves a puddle of pee on the cement floor.
I remember that I can do anything since this is a dream and I am lucid. I have the freedom and the power. I decide to sink into the pool of dog pee.
I don’t really have a solid body (in the past few years, I haven’t been able to have a solid body and am only a vague energy body OR I am a kind of camera that has all views like a movie director. If I am the movie director, nobody sees me but sometimes, I am the energy body that I can’t quite see but others relate to me as if they see and hear me, like normal).
Anyway, I float over and hover over the pool of dog pee and I drop into it, feet first.
I expected it to be a bit yucky but it’s not yucky at all. No smell, Not wet.
I find myself in a golden yellow light. At first, I try to look for ‘things’ but there is nothing else, just this light.Even my energy body kind of disappears and I’m just an awareness.
I become more lucid and feel joyful.
*I’m around the same void deck. It is a bright day. *
There is a concrete pillar about 4 feet wide and 2 feet thick. It is in front of me (my energy body).
I become lucid and I think I want to try to go through this concrete pillar.
I try to make a solid body, look at my hands etc but I can’t.
So I move my energy body towards the pillar AAARRGH! but surprise! I go through it.
I’m quite excited and then I think that since I am an energy body, maybe it ‘doesn’t count’.
I start again in the origial position facing the concrete pillar about 8 feet away from it. I try to make a solid body but fail. Suddenly, a young teen guy appears on a bicycle in front of me, facing the pillar. I decide to ‘be’ the young teen guy and I (the teen guy) now ride quickly aiming at the pillar. I go through it. it seems to soften and fold like marshmallow.
I practise going through once more.
Then I remember that I can fly through as a phoenix and this time I manage to manifest as a phoenix. It isn’t very big but it (I) fly through the thick concrete without difficulty. I fly up, up.
A small piece of brown ?food appears at the phoenix’s mouth (I am the phoenix but now, I am also ‘camera’ watching.). The phoenix goes after this goody and it’s almost in its mouth but then the ‘goody’ flies off.
Symbols: 1. VOID DECK (‘to void’, to clear. or VOID as ‘Emptiness’)
2. ‘CONCRETE’ ‘PILLAR’
3. DOG ( in some past dreams this was manifest ‘God’)
4, PEE (small clearing)
5. BICYCLE (? wheel. but why TWO wheels?)
Question: What was the ‘goody’ that was almost in my mouth but flew off?