One of my earliest goals in all of this was to establish an unbroken continuity of consciousness between my waking state and my dream state. Early on I was thinking that I would work to be as awake in my dreams as I am during the day. But here I am almost two years in to this training and I am realizing that it works both ways…the whole process is reciprocal.
Here’s the thing…almost all of my dreams now are just like my waking life. I let things happen around me. I watch and don’t do much of anything to change the course of things. I’m older now and that’s just how I live my life. I rarely go for flights in the dream these days and I have not found myself in a situation where I needed to dissolve a dream character or an entire dream scene in weeks. So…am I ever really “lucid” in these dreams?
I came to a realization about this last night based on this premise: if you are truly convinced that what you are witnessing is an illusory image, that is, that it is absolutely not what it appears to be…you are “lucid”. In the context of this premise I use that term in its classic lucid dreaming form to mean that you know you are dreaming. I am absolutely certain that what I am seeing right now as I write this is an illusion. It is not what it appears to be. It has taken over a year of contemplation to come to this point. So…I am lucid right now.
The implications of this are huge. If I know that the world around me is an illusion then it has no real hold on me. I will no longer be conditioned by my reactions to it. This lets me get closer to my real goal of breaking the grasp of karmic conditioning and becoming my true self, which is, of course, no self at all.
I contemplated this last night before a short meditation on emptiness. Then, for the first time in almost two years, I slept through the night with no dreams. I woke up, instead, to this dream where I am writing this to all of you.